School Days September 2, 2008

So today started my next 3 years at P.S.O. It was pretty crazy!! Soooo many people there and alot of noise going on.. with all the more craziness of trying to find your classes, the rooms, no bells, and everything else that highschool has to bring. But for the most part it was one of the many more exciting days there. New teachers and students are just the beggining of all the fun at P.S.O. So many people have told me that its alot better then the Jr.High and im so excited to see whats all guna happen this year. But for now I gota go get ready for my frist whole day.

xoxo

New Hair August 19, 2008

So I totally haven’t blogged forever! So I might as well start now.. lol I got my hair cut for school. Heres a pic, tell me what you think. I’ll blog again soon.. but for now, its back to being busy.

xoxo

Beauty in Everything August 8, 2008

God is amazing. I know in my life I take things for granted way to much! God can take something as simlpe as this tree and give it meaning. To me, this tree represents God himself. A big, strong foundation, stretching out his arms to everything and everyone who comes to him. Hes a home for the homeless, for people who need him, or something as simple and a bug to rest on. Gods love for us grows and grows uncondishonly.

1 Corinthians 13:4-8 says: Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

It also says in 1 John 4:8 that whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love.

So if God is love that means he never fails, he is paitent and everything that it says in 1 Corinthians 13.  To me, this tree isn’t just a simple boreing tree, its one of Gods creations.

Confusion Continues August 7, 2008

Confused confused confused. Thats about all I can say today. Being a teenager is not everything I thought it was going to be when I was 10, back when boys were still icky and I had nothing to do with them. Even in summer, the pressures of being smart, pretty, boys, and pretty much everything else in life right now adds up to the point of being 100% confused! Even when it comes to church and God and all that stuff its just more confusion. I dont really know what to do anymore. Praying isnt exactly helping.. but maybe I just need to wait and wait and wait for an answer. Maybe this is all to teach me something or ahh I have no idea!! lol See my problem. Guess the thinking continues too…

Friends August 6, 2008

So my friends are amazing!! They are what gets me through the day. I have 5 best friends, Evelyn, Shanna, Vanessa, Eden and Rachel. They are all totally awesome!! We can be really stupid sometimes..actually most of the time when we are together. So let me tell you about them all lol

Hmm who first.. lets start with Evelyn. Me and Evelyn met in September of 2006 at school. We werent the greatest friends at first but from the end of the school year all summer and now, we are besties. She is so funny and silly and just always smiles! Whenever I need to talk she is always there for me =)

Next can be Shanna. Shanna is my craziest friend! She doesnt really care what other people think about her, she just does what she wants to do and thats how she is. No one messes with her. Shes like my personal body guard. But yet, she is one of the sweetest people I have ever met! I have known her since we were 8 and our friendship just keeps growing.

Ok next is Vanessa. Me and Vanessa havent been really good friends for a long time but this past 2 years have been totally awesome with her as my friend!! She is so much fun all the time!! Me and her do the stupidest things together and she is just sucha blessing in my life. She is always there to talk no matter what time it is!! I love her so much!

Now time for Eden. Eden is just so great!! I dont know how else to discribe her! She has the biggest heart for everyone and everything! She is non stop laughing and smiles and fun. I am so happy that me and her met and are friends!

And last but not least, Rachel! Me and Rachel have been friends for pretty much ever! Ok so only a few years but we have grown so much with eachother. I am so happy to have a friend how cares so much about me and is so much fun to be with!    All of my friends are totally amazing and I love them all soooo much!! xoxox

Worship Wonders August 6, 2008

So today Nathan came and did worship for us at DDT. My first reaction to that was great another time that I get to try to enter in, end up empty and questioning God again. But somehow this time was different. I really dont know how but at the end of worship time I wasn’t questioning about God, but more along the lines of why did I feel like that, and how come God works in so many ways. At times when you think you can’t handle it anymore, He always seems to be there. So many times I have wondered when people tell me if God brought you to it, He will bring you through it. But if can allow so much into your life that you feel you can’t handle it, how can that be what you can handle in His eyes. When it comes to worship, every emotion that is in me just wants to come out. I want to break out and worship and just go crazy for God and fall to me knees, but its just so hard. Today was different. I wasn’t falling to my knees but it just seemed like everything was coming out when Nate was praying. When I woke up this morning, thoughts of how am I going to make it through today were spinning in my head, but now, its more I’m ready for youth tonight, and I can’t wait to enter in. People say stuff about its your choice if you enter in or not and I understand that now. Tonight is going to be different at youth.

Does Anybody Hear Her? August 5, 2008

This song by Casting Crowns is one of my favourite.

 

It relates so much to my life right now. Sometimes it just seems like you can be so invisible in life, you just want people to understand you, and know whats happening. Its like you just belting it out on the inside trying to get it out but when it comes to actually saying stuff, your silent.